Still awake

Im stilll awake and decided to write this post to remind myself. Seems that I had been too bored and the boredom is making me lose my head. Why do I have to worry so much? What will come will eventually come. 命中有时终须有 、命中无时莫强求. I really have to learn to be patiences and take my time. Thinking too far ahead isn't going to do me any good.

Maybe it's alway because I want what I want to come my way. But I guess whatever is just an excused to hide my flaw. This game is really hard to play and I haven't play it for eons already. I had it easy in the past causing the inexperience but I can tell being natural is the best solution so far. Lets see how this goes. 11th Nov is the cut off hopefull..

SL was friend enough to chat with me till now after I realise my flaw. Damn.. Im listening to the 南拳妈妈 that she sent me. Really suits the mood and atmosphere now. But still I can't get to sleep. Don't know why.